mis.

misconstrue seems to have been the buzzword of our relationship.

this message I misunderstood, that phone call you took wrongly.

perhaps we were nothing more than a miss.

and all our truth was in all that we left unsaid.

still, leaving aside any (less than pleasant) personal opinions and possible bitter comments I may have regarding his "irresponsibility", and what I think was the real irresponsibility here, I still have you to thank.

I still remember what you said to me once,

"jumping into another relationship with a identity crisis is just going to open up a can of worms."

I suspect I wasn't the only one who had problems then.

But honestly, all bitterness aside, you helped me to come out of my issues.

You helped me grow. So thank you for that.

But I still need to grow up and learn about people and relationships.

And maybe you have to as well, but maybe in a different way. So goodbye for now.

...not doing anything,

not even reading, not really, just

looking at your telephone,

wondering if I was going to call.

I'm not sorry I disconnected for so long; it wasn't a conscious effort on my part.

And I know how people can remain normal friends even after a breakup, but I cannot see that.

Since this wasn't a proper relationship, therefore it wasn't a breakup.

And we weren't normal friends to begin with.

perhaps when I find what and who exactly I am angry with, and I resolve my issues.

In the meantime, I'll spend time knowing myself better.

...you could be happy, and I won't know,...